Well it's been several months since I last posted on here, and a lot has happened. In and out of two relationships. Now taking 'time to help myself'. None of it's gotten any easier, actually in the past week everything seems to have rushed in all over again so we can replay the past in all of it painful glory. Too many memories methinks, but irony of ironys I, who can't remember anything to save my life, can't just forget either. I think I've gotten things so messed up around here that I don't know where to begin as far as fixing any of it goes. Supposedly I am getting better at talking to people. But with only a handful of people out there that still care to listen, that doesn't help much. Someone told me the other day I should get professional help. They could be right..